Circle of life

Walking home

The whole country is bracing for war with Gaza as Israel struck the enclave killing 2 leaders. People in the streets are asking if there will be a war ... But as I see it, there's been very weak responses from Gaza in the past 5 years to such strikes, so I doubt anything will come out of it. It's all posturing.

I'm recovering from yesterday's angina attack. I'm much slower than before today. But still so much work to do. I had to apply for 6 visas, then buy 2 insurances, then 3 air tickets .... The superior where I work said it's time to put me in our infirmary. I guess so. I feel very overwhelmed by work. I can't multitask like when I was younger. 

I've been wondering what death will be like. I'm preparing my documents, books and all other stuff for that event. I look around all the familiar scenes - the trees, sounds, cars, buildings, shops, food, smells ... all will be gone. It's like I've never existed.

Rose bud dessert

I guess my deteriorating health is quite apparent to everyone. Today Linda from Mian restaurant made some nice dessert - snow fungus, ginko nuts, ginger with dried lychees and rose buds; slow boiled without sugar. Wonderful for this hot afternoon. Yesterday Ah Ling from Mandarin restaurant gave me fried rice. It's like everyone is giving me my last meal. I'm grateful to them. 

And I was told of the coming weddings of 3 good israeli friends Baruch, Aviram and Naor. Finally they're getting married! The circle of life is complete. As I look at them laughing and telling me their good news, I thought how I was once their age 40 years ago ... but there's no going back. It's their world now.